If you're on twitter and you don't follow @binduwiles, you're missing out on some really centering conversation, some big laughs, and a centering presence across the internet. I found Bindu pretty quickly after joining Twitter, but I didn't know how or why I was led her way, until this week.
You see, in the midst of the fog that is grief, Bindu announced 21-5-800 and I said - That's Exactly What I Need.
It's 21 days - three weeks - and it starts right now. That's a good thing. I need some regimen.
But five yoga practices a week? That worried me initially, until I read the fine print and learned that a twenty minute savasana could stand in for a yoga class.
I immediately focused on my first savasana, twelve years ago, when my back was in constant spasm. It was my very first yoga class, never having given much credit to the whole yoga thing. When the class ended and we were instructed to lie down in savasana, I realized it was the first time in a very long time I allowed myself to be quiet like that. No phone, computer, music, TV - it was so quiet and peaceful. I heard my own heartbeat. I cried a little. I realized how I missed quiet.
Bindu, I can't believe I ended up back in the loud world again, and forgot quiet. Today, I rolled out my yoga mat and, in the middle of my living room, put on the gamma waves music and gave myself the gift of savasana. Twenty minutes later, I felt light, peaceful. And all the daily-noise was gone. It was so wonderful; I could transition gently into the evening.
I did a lot of writing today. But not much of it here, not for the blog. I did all kinds of letter writing, emails, proposals. More than 800 words, but not that interesting writing I was hoping for.
You see, I have a project I've been thinking about for awhile. I'm not quite ready to share all the details, but a good portion of those 800 words a day will be devoted to my Secret Project.
In the meantime, we're hoping a new dog will be joining the Barrow household on Thursday. Watch this space, as they say.
pretty excited about this tomato - mortgage lifter - it's extremely vigorous
The garden pics are totally random, but all this talking about myself makes me nervous.